i want to vent but it seems Lately I started feeling this inner burden in my heart telling me there's something wrong. Well picture this…I spend most of my week alone, either I'm at school where I really don't talk because I'm paying attention, or I'm at home in my room studying, reading, or writing. Everyone is out and about in their lives doing what they got to do. Which I don't knock them for. But like I said, I've been really feeling this inner void that I'm trying to fill. And I was thinking maybe it's because I've haven't had time to have a girlfriend, or maybe because I work too hard. But it's not that, I figured it out. All I really want is someone on my level of thinking that would just let me go to them when I just want to vent. Honestly I'm very strong willed person, and I dont honestly... I dont give a fuck how tough, or gangster your are, take my word for it, sometimes you just need someone to listen to you…
When I ask you to listen to me and you start giving me advice, you have not done what I asked.
When I ask you to listen to me and you begin to tell me why I shouldn't feel that way, you are trampling on my feelings.
When I ask you to listen to me and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem, you have failed me, strange as that may seem.
Listen! All I ask is that you listen. Don't talk or do - just hear me.
Advice is cheap; 20 cents will get you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper, and I can do for myself; I am not helpless. Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.
When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself, you contribute to my fear and inadequacy. But when you accept as a simple fact that I feel what I feel, no matter how irrational, then I can stop trying to convince you and get about this business of understanding what's behind this irrational feeling.
And when that's clear, the answers are obvious and I don't need advice. Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what's behind them.
Perhaps that's why prayer works, sometimes, for some people - because G*d is mute, and he doesn't give advice or try to fix things. G*d just listens and lets you work it out for yourself.
So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute
for your turn - and I will listen to you.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute
for your turn - and I will listen to you.
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